iWant.

My mind is racing right now. There's so many questions. So much I don't know or understand. There's so much I want.

I want to be skinny. I want to have lots of money. I want to have a boyfriend. I want to be a stronger Christ follower. I want to have style. I want to go on vacations. I want to be able to buy whatever I want. I want an action-packed summer. I want to do what I set out to do. I want to be popular. I want to be stronger. I want to be sweet to everyone. I want to live a life that glorifies God in all that I do. I want to see new things. I want to be able to draw. I want to complete a goal. I want to have a purpose. I want a storybook life.

I understand that everyone is different and unique. But I don't understand why it has to control our lives. I don't see why some people get to be pretty and skinny and rich and others are stuck being fat and lower class. I don't understand why some people get everything they want, and others have to struggle for what they need.

I don't understand why it is so difficult for me to lose weight and to keep up with my quiet times. I have nothing better to do. Every day almost I am sitting at home doing NOTHING. Its boring. But, exercising is boring to me too. I don't have any specific place I can go to work. I have to stay at home and use what I have, nothing.

I don't understand a lot of things. I wish I did, and I wish my wants could become things I do or have. But they aren't. They are wants.

So, I am setting some goals. I am going to try my best to get a summer job. I am going to lose 40 pounds by the end of summer. I am going to buy cute clothes. I am going to be a strong Christian. I am gonna try my best to have a boyfriend. And I am going to have a wonderful summer. Let's hope I can reach most of these goals.

--Love,

Laney

Good Morning, Hobos.

Hello, dear Bloggians! That is what I shall now call you in reference to people who read blogs. I don't really know either...

So, recently, some ideas and whatnots have come into my wonderful little head.

having to do with Hobos and Mornings. But not at the same time...

So the other day I was watching America's Got Talent and this choir came on. They were from

this homeless shelter called New Beginnings, for veterans. And that got me to thinking, there are

plenty of hobos out there that aren't veterans! And they need help too! SOOO, I was thinking that

I could have a recovery home for homeless people.

Get them cleaned up, give them some food, awarm place to sleep, a church, and help them find a job,

and a suitable place to live or rent. It seems odd, butits a good way to serve, love and lead.

You are probably thinking, "Delaney, you have talked about so many different career opportunities,

what are you gonna do?"

To be perfectly honest with you, I don't know. I am leaving that up to God and I know he will let me know what I am supposed to do.

The other thing that I am actually starting, is a morning workout/routine. I did it this morning, and my day went pretty well.

I wake up, go outside(weather permitting) and I have my Quiet Time, in nature, where I feel closest to God.

Then I stretch.

Then, I walk/jog up and down my hill of a driveway ten times.

Then I do some yoga.

Then I drink some water.

Then I eat!!

Exercising in the morning is good for you, because it gets your heart rate going and kick starts your metabolism.

And having a Quiet Time in the morning helps you feel prepared for the day.

Well, it is late, and I have church tomorrow!

--Love,

Laney.

Give me a sign.

Losing someone important to you stinks. It hurts. It's hard. I should know.

The people whom we love the most, can also hurt us the most.

The people who I thought were my best friends, aren't.

I don't exactly feel like explaining the WHOLE story, so here's the sweetened, condensed version.

Some friends were passing a note, about me. They left it there and by chance, I read it. They said bad things about me and it hurt. I told them that it was mean and I just ignored them because I was mad and didn't want my anger to cause anything bad to happen. The next day, I get to class and there's 2 notes on my desk, from them. Both of them never apologized, but rather put all or most of the blame on me and tried to justify what they said and talking about me in general. They no longer wanted to be my friend. I decided I was done with their crap and I didn't need fake friends that held me down and hurt me. We haven't talked since.

At school, to other people, and even what they see of me, it seems that I have just hardened my shell and moved on with my life. But deep down inside, it's killing me. I cry. I really hurts me to think that all along they probably didn't even care about me, or my feelings. To think that the people I loved the most are okay to just throw me away like that. It makes me feel unimportant.

"Everything good in my life falls apart." That's my sign. My sign that many people don't see. I always feel like every time something good happens in my life, something bad happens and I lose it. Even the people I loved and cared about and trusted have gone away from me.

Tonight, church was amazing. It showed me that I don't have to hurt like this. My God loves me no matter what and His will shall be done. "Through me, God's will can be done." That's my new sign. I want everyone to see it. I want to identify me. The girl who brought God's Kingdom to Earth. That will be me.

--Love,

Laney

Life and Love.

Hello Dear Readers!

So sorry that its been so long since I have written! I feel bad for lacking, but I have been very busy. Tuesday and Thursday I had track meets, and Wednesday I had church right after practice. I have also found out some new things this week.

As I continue to do track, I have more faith in my athletic abilities... So when the fall rolls around, I am going to do softball(: (assuming I make the team) Candace will also be doing it, and I think it is going to be a great deal of fun(: I am also considering trying out for cheerleading, but doubt I would make it anyways.

Also, as many of you who have read my past blogs may know, I have been trying to find my place in my calling for ministry. I believe I have found it. I considered for a while, a Children's Pastor, but to me it's just not real, because children will believe anything you tell them. So God put the idea of being a Student Ministry leader. I prayed about it for a while, and I believe it would be a good fit for me because my strongest decisions and changes have been made during these teenage years, which are the beginning of the rest of my life. And I believe that every teenager should build their relationship with Christ during these years.

I spoke to Jeremy about a possible apprenticeship with him and Marty at church, and it is a very possible thing at this point. However, doing Youth Apprenticeship through my school might not be as great a possibility as a summer program or something. The school requires you to provide your own transportation, which some days may be a problem. And my schedule is already full, as well as my after school activities. However, I will continue to pray about it and if it is meant to be, God will put the pieces into place.

As you know, Easter is right around the corner, literally. I hope that everyone will remember everything Jesus did for you so that you can spend eternity in Heaven.

If you don't know, here's what MY Jesus did so that we may live free:

He was beaten and flogged 39 times. (40 was said to kill a man) He was mocked and had a crown of thorns beaten into His head. He carried His cross (two large, splintered pieces of wood) 6 football fields in length, through a crowd of people mocking him and spitting on him. His wrists were nailed to the cross, along with both of His feet. His clothes were taken and gambled for by the guards. He drank vinegar from the guards. His side was pierced with a spear. He was left to die. "Can you hear Him say 'I love you'?"

Our Saviour did all of that so that WE may be forgiven of our sins. He who knew no sin, died for ours. He loved us so much that he gave His life for us. Are you going to give your life to Him?

--Love,

LaneyLou

Love all.

Dear readers,

So sorry I haven't written all weekend... I was at Olivia's house.

We have started our conjoined blog about our story of how we came to be best friends/twins/Delivia. It is taking longer than expected, because its hard to explain how we came to be how we are. It's definitely a "God-Thing" as people say. His plan is amazing and He brings amazing people in and out of my life, ans I thank Him for every one of them.

This past Sunday in discussion group we discussed our new series "Go Serve." It was an interesting discussion, but there was one specific topic I didn't agree on. It was stated that people do everything for some sort of recognition. I don't believe that. I don't believe that everything that we do is for attention or for appreciation. There are so many things that people do for others everyday that goes unnoticed. Yes, God does notice everything that we do, but He already knows that we are going to do them, so we aren't exactly doing it for recognition.

Today I started writing a sermon, one about loving one another. About loving everyone around us. Not just our friends and family, but everyone, even those who make us mad. Its not always easy to do that, but we have to try because it is what God tells us to do. Philippians 2:2-5 says "...make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. In your relationships with one another, you should have the same attitude of mind that Christ Jesus had." This passage is a perfect example of how God tells us to live our lives and how to treat others.

When we come in to contact with people in our lives everyday, how do we treat them? Is it how we should be treating them? Look at your relationships and see if they are how they should be.

Have a good day and let God be your pilot.

--Love,

LaneyLou

Let the games begin.

Hello everyone(:

Welcome to day 5 of my blog, this is a milestone for me, in a way... WOOT!

Today was a pretty average day, despite the lack of Sarah and Maddi, who were at Chorus festival... i was very hyper at the end of 3rd period and the beginning of 4th... that was fun :D

However, a friend of mine was telling Paige and I that she was a Christian because she believes in God, but she just wants to live her own life. This puzzled us. I told her "Well Demons believe in God, too." (it's in James) and me and Paige were trying to convince her that it's not your body and it's not your life to live. God gave us life and we need to live it for him. She didn't seem convinced, and Paige had to hold a lot in that she wanted to say to her. It was a testing moment for all of us.

Then, after school, I went to Game Night, hosted by the Interact Club at school. I promised Nicole and Kaitlin I would go, so I had to... But I'm actually glad I did(: It was more fun than I thought a bunch of nerds and some teachers playing board games could have! We laughed and joked and I actually won Chutes and Ladders and me and Kaitlin dominated in Cranium!

It taught me that we don't need all the electronics and crap we think we do. It's as simple as a board game to have some good, clean, pure fun! God created it that way, He made the world so that we could find joy in even the little things. Just looking at a flower He made can bring us so much joy at the beauty He made. Let us notice the beauty of the simple things around us. Take a break from your cellphone or computer and just enjoy life.

Thanks for reading(:

--Love,

LaneyLou

Awakening my Blog.

Hello dear people who are reading this...

This is my first blog(:

I am pretty excited to join the blogging community because I always enjoy sharing my thoughts and insights with others, and this is a wonderful way to do so.

Well, if you don't know too terribly much about me....

My name is Delaney, and I am 15. I am in 10th grade and I LOVE THE LORD JESUS CHRIST!

I am pretty funny and I love music and spending time with my friends and my God(:

I go to an awesome church and I am part of an awesome small group called BITA.

My favorite colors are lime green and hot pink and my favorite food is steak, rare.

Okay... here comes the "blog" part of this.

I very recently went to an event called Disciple Now with my church, and it has already changed my life. I have been a Christian for most of my life, but I didn't always act like one, unfortunately. I like to do things that are easy, rather than doing the hard things that I should do, in other words, I'm a slacker. And I had unfortunately been slacking when it came to God. Yes, I would go to church and serve the Lord by serving others, but its easy to serve God when you are surrounded by a bunch of other Christians. It's not as easy to live for God when the people around you aren't. I was slacking, and I wasn't okay with that.

At Disciple Now our theme was Awaken. Now, I have been a Christian for a long time, like I said, but not an awake and alive one. Our wonderfully talented speaker for the weekend was Sam Bhatt, and his passion for Jesus Christ has inspired me in so many ways. His message to us was that we need to awaken from our slumber and awaken from our ignorance of our sins and live the way God tells us to. To let the love of God flow through us and shine through us and change how we treat others, especially the "Josephs" in our lives. And that is exactly what I plan to do.

This weekend I was also changed in other ways. For a little while now, I have wanted to be an Orthodontist, an odd dream for a girl who is disgusted by spit. But this weekend, during one of the songs by the amazing Matt Papa band, the words said "Whom shall i send? Who will go for us?" and i heard an voice clearly say "Delaney." It sounded somewhat like the guitar, but it was clearly saying my name. I was a bit spooked and actually gasped when I heard it. It's not too often that the Lord speaks to us that clearly, and when He does, He means it. I believe that this was God's way of calling me to ministry. I'm not sure what field of it yet, but I am praying about it constantly and I know God will reveal his plan to me.

Thanks so much for reading my first blog and you can expect many more to come(:

--Love,

LaneyLou