When you dwell in a world without love, the only love you may dare to feel is unrequited.

and such is the case with me. when the only words you hear contain hate and despair, you begin to only feel hate and despair. When you are told nobody ever cares about what you think or say, you start to think it's true. and sometimes you stop caring about what you think or say. When the world around you is dark, the world inside you becomes dark. and when your world falls apart and starts to die...

Ren(own).

Hello Dear Readers,
I am currently in Yearbook class, and I searched myself on Google, and I found my blog! I read over some of my old blogs, and decided to write a new one. And my friend Amanda is watching the magic unfold. Okay, well... she's watching me type.
Disciple Now was this last weekend. And if I remember correctly, I started this blog after D-Now last year! Woot! One full year!
This year D-Now's theme was Renown. Our theme verse was Isiah 26:8 about God's name and Renown being the desires of our hearts. I really liked this theme because I know I need to work on living out loud for God, not just on paper. This week I have tried my best to live like I should. And I think I am doing pretty good. I have dressed modestly and tried my best not to gossip and do other bad things. I hope that I will stay strong and work more on my Quiet Times.
This week I also started work. I work at Sonic Drive-In(: I am currently a Trainee, but I think I'm getting it pretty quickly. Though I am very tired at the end of the day. The Graduation Test is no help either. I should be on skates this Friday as well.

Well this class is over, so I must go. Until next time...

--Laney's Wonderland.

You know I'd walk a thousand miles...

Hello dear readers(:

Today, I didn't want to sit inside and do nothing, so I layed out and tanned for about 30 minutes. Then I decided to go for a walk. Just down the road a little ways then back. But as I was walking I saw how beautiful it was outside today. And I was in awe.

Usually I drive down the road I was walking so quickly I never notice how pretty the landscape and houses are. I live down the street from a lot of gorgeous houses with gorgeous yards. Who knew?

I took the time of my walk to just be content with the world that God made for us. And I just kept on walking. Eventually I was at the end of Sloan Mill staring at Poplar Springs. But instead of turning back and going home, I decided I would walk to Kaelen's house(: which is a good ways from my house by foot. But it was a beautiful day and I had a purpose so I walked all the way there! I got there just as they were leaving to see their Grandmother. And they kindly gave me a ride home.

I walked in the door and collapsed. However, I felt really good despite being sore and tired. After a shower I felt great.

Today was a great day! I loved being able to enjoy the warm sun and peaceful breeze and just bask in the glory of God. I really do love nature because it is so beautiful and peaceful. And having such a beautiful day really motivated me. I'm so happy that the weather has been so beautiful! I hope that it stays this way and I will have more chances for days like today.

And I also hope that you have had a blessed day as well(:

-Laney's Wonderland.

Umm... Ouch.

Oh Dear Readers...

Today was not a very good day for me. :(

I don't really want to throw out names or anything, but here is basically what happened:

So there's this boy that i like... Shocker right? And well, I have liked him for a while now. And he hasn't really liked me back... mostly for personal reasons, not really about me. But today, I was talking to him and he brought up the subject of me liking him and how we should just stay as friends. And I explained that I knew that and I'm mature enough to handle it. Well then he told me that he sees positive things that could happen if we were more than friends and that we would make a good couple, but he has put those feelings aside because it "feels best."

Well then we talked some more, and it turns out theres another girl. A girl who is my "friend." A girl who I talked to just the other day about liking this particular boy. And well, I cried. Because she KNEW how I felt, and because this isn't the first guy this has happened with, same girl too. And I told him this, and then he was mad at her for knowingly doing this. And mad at himself for basically hurting me to get her.

And she apologized, but probably only because he told her too. She's done this before, why would she be sorry?

So this boy decided to end things with her because of that. And to just be friends with both of us.

So, my lovely best friend/twin bought me some ice cream :3 and my daddy made Japanese food(: and i shaved my legs. WOOT.

And who knows, I might like someone else now, a cute someone in my 2nd period. That I happen to be texting now(:

All's well that ends well right? sure.

--Laney's Wonderland.

First Blog of 2011

Hello Dear Readers,

Well here it is... 2011! And also the last day of break!

I have conflicted feelings about returning to school... I'm not sure that I am ready to return to all of the hustle and bustle that school entails, but at the same time I am almost tired of sitting around with nothing to do. School work is obviously no fun, but seeing my friends should be.

However I keep having nightmares that are car related. Like I always go to school and forgot that I drove there, so I rode the bus home, and my bus driver would become evil and never let me off the bus, or that if she did, a police man was using my car as a demonstration of how not to drive and wrecking it for fun. They were not pleasant. But, i know that nothing like that will happen.

I am very thankful for this new year, and this new chance to start over and fix mistakes of 2010. A fresh new year, a fresh new start. Hopefully this will be my best year yet. And I am gonna do what I can to make it great.

Well, my show is on, Pretty Little Liars(: so I will write later.

Love,

Laney

Just Friends.

Hello Dear Readers,

Today, I didn't do much at first... went to the store, made Chicken Bog, watched some TV, cleaned a little...

But then I got to go hang out with one of my best friends for 3 hours(: and get this, that friend... is a BOY. That's right, a guy, who is just a friend, whom i can hang out with and it not be awkward. And guess what? I'm fine with that.

I have recently re-realized that i don't need to "be with" someone to be happy. All you really need is friends, family and God. And even if your family is disfunctional, you have your family that you choose, your friends. And those people, can mean the world to you. I know my friends mean the world to me(: And while it is nice to have someone to "be with" as a teenager, its not everything. Because most people aren't going to end up marrying their high school sweetheart. You more often find people who end up marrying their best friend. And to me, that sounds pretty good.

So be a friend first, and don't worry about all the relationship drama, God has it all planned out for you. So sit back and enjoy the beautiful friendships you have in your life. You might just find out that it's what you've been missing all along. And who knows, you might even find your "happily ever after" there.

--Laney.

PS: I was supposed to have posted this yesterday... oh well!

Miss Me?

Hello Dear Readers...

It's been awhile hasn't it? I really almost forgot i even had a blog... Sorry I forgot you guys!

I would say I have been super busy, but that would be a lie.

It is now DECEMBER. I'm halfway done with my Junior year! Time flies, doesn't it?

Christmas was this past Saturday, and it was wonderful(: I got a CAR :D My '98 Chevy Cavalier, Sally(: She's blue and absolutely adorable! I also got a cell phone and clothes and everything else i asked for(: I am so blessed!

I am now at Olivia's house, and I saw her doing her blog, and it made me decide to start blogging again! We are about to leave, so this is just a little preview!

You can expect to hear from me again soon!

--Love,

Laney.